Ordinary: My Dark Secret: How I Failed My Family Business File: #JNAFILES (xvii) ----- "The quicker we can learn about ourselves and accept our truths is the quicker we avoid completely wrecking ourselves." - JNA Hi, Almost 160,000 people! This is the amount of people who on some level find Or found the things I shared on the Internet interesting. It's wild to think about, honestly. Any piece of content I create I genuinely do it with a level of care Because I want the person consuming it to have a great Experience & take some kind of value from it! However, I realized theres a dark secret that I've had with myself that has kind of held me back From my full potential of self expression on any level In any form. The dark secret: I failed & neglected my family business. I honestly, failed myself! I've never said this to anyone or even myself before But I've always known it, and felt it. Its hard for me To share things like this because I don't... a.) love The emotions that come up from this thought b.) I don't want to dwell. I just am always looking for Solutions or ways to recover and move forward, and... C.) Call me crazy, but I genuinely don't believe the game is over! It's a gift and a curse. Actually, now that I'm reflecting on this thought, I do Remember that I shared an article about this once. It Received a lot of love and appreciation for the share. Spark Notes version - I Graduated college, went into biz With my mother. Grew the biz by 40% in the first 2-3 years. Hit a wall with my mom in the biz. We couldn't see eye to Eye on some things. My ego took over. I was young. Stupid. Inexperienced. I used my moms lack Of agreeing with me as an excuse for my Awful behavior & lack of leadership. Felt like I was "the man" but it was insecurity. I had very minimal business success to backup my ego! It wasn't like I built a sustainable business for 10+ Years or anything. I saw initial growth with the aid of A consultant and a few mentors. Anyway, felt like "the man" when I wasn't. I hadn't Really proven myself to myself yet. I honestly wasn't Even aware what proving myself to myself even was or meant. I thought I knew though. Anyway, I digress.... I Left the family business to go consult other businesses Around the country. At the same time, Started my content creation journey, Realized while consulting that my heart really was for My family business, not consulting other businesses. I Feel like I did very well as a consultant. At times I struggled because I lacked the experience in a couple Of areas, but all in all I was decent. If I put my mind Into it and have a sincere passion, I can't lose. Thats Just my mindset. If im being really honest, before I left the family ' Business, I would sit there with so many questions. I Was always looking for answers on how I could make our Business boom. I kind of saw everything I would get involved In outside of the family business, as a lead to give me the answers I was looking for to Grow the family business. I guess they would call it Shiny object syndrome. Ive always been a degenerate lol. I snuck in that I started my content creation journey only To point out that, as sincere and genuine as I was making The content, I wouldn't hardly admit that this had all Being going on in my life. But I knew it. I felt it. The same feeling I had while consulting, was the same Feeling I carried when making content. "My family business is my responsibility because I put Myself in that position. And I need to do right by my Parents" Even though I left the business to pursue other things, My mindset was always to bring back my experience and Learnings and apply it to the business. I would literally tell the universe that I needed more life Experiences, more hard experiences to be able to Break through and grow the business where I envisioned it To be. Be careful what you ask for and how you ask for it. I said I wanted a bigger challenge, OH THE UNIVERSE Fucking delivered! Boy did it! The lessons I took away from 9 years after leaving the Family business is this: The grass isn't greener on the other side, ever! The quicker we can learn about ourselves and accept Our truths is the quicker we avoid completely wrecking Ourselves. Be clear when you tell the universe what you want and make sure Before you put it our there it really matches the energy you Want to receive. I don't have all the answers but ive definitely learned some Things from these requested experiences lol. I guess to tie it all together and explain why I even mentioned The number of people who have tuned into my content across The web is to say this Im flattered by the attention. I love the love. I love creating I love engaging, interacting, and bringing value, but I love Myself more. I love myself enough to pause, recalibrate, and really Make things right in my world before I continue the show. Whats even more is that I haven't given myself any deadlines, timelines, Rules. Who knows when I'll be back to a place where I just want to create? I'm just staying true to myself which inevitably makes me a better person For those around me. As for the family business, I'm still at it and figuring it out! ----- Prev File: 0a39de6a6ef60b60b3b888abb8bb08861f6e278a9837100929114d6634643a51i0 ----- -JNA